Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Scotch and Shortbread

Miles looked up at the small clock next to the ancient cash register. With a long slow sigh, like the air being let out of balloon, he lowered his balding head into his hands. Thirty more long minutes before he could go and relax in his armchair before a warm fire brandishing a large scotch and a small plate of shortbread. Miles raised his head looking up and the moldy ceiling. His eyes wandered to the cracked windows above the line of old refrigerators and to the warped paint chipped floor boards. For the last eleven years Miles had meant to have them fixed but figured the cost would not be worth the return.
The bell above the door tinkled as two teenage kids shuffled into the food mart stomping snow and ice from their boots on the weathered door mat and raising their hands in a casual salute to Miles. Miles returned their daily greeting with his hand in lazy acknowledgment.
"The usual?" he smirked, as the two teenagers ambled up to the register clutching two blue slushies and two bags of potato chips.
The kids smiled in an embarrassed sort of way. No one really understood Miles Walker and his attempts at humor. The lined aged face that peered down over the cash register was unreadable. Miles often seemed to absorbed in his painful past rather than in opportunity of the future.
After he handed the taller teenager the change the two kids hurried out onto the snowy streets, the grimy shop door closing with a tinkle of the aged bell and a whoosh of cold winter wind and snow. The warmth and elation that had filled Miles at the memories of his own childhood at the sight of the two young friends, left him as quickly as the wind outside rushing through the snow packed streets. He stared at their footprints left in the snow just outside his shop window. Miles imagined himself as a footprint left in the snow. An imprint of a person that will soon be wiped away, never to be remembered.

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  1. "But daddy, I don't want to leave, I'll have to find a new school." Kara was complaining but not as much as she usually did. She could tell something was really up, this wasn't like when I denied her ice cream or made her go to bed.
    She was really growing up.
    "Sorry, love, I really am sorry. But think about it, you were going to have to switch school at the end of the year anyways, Guiding Light doesn't have grades above you." I say back, I'm smiling now. I can't stop smiling. Somewhere inside the social part of my mind is telling me to stop, I must look like a madman, but these two tickets in my pocket seem to radiate with a tangible heat.
    "So really you won't be missing anything but the last couple of months of school." I take the tickets out, a white racing dog is leaping on a field of blue and red, its the most precious thing I've ever bought.
    I look over and Kara is giving me a quizzical look.
    "Are you alright, daddy?" She says, her small face the picture of seriousness. "You are acting strange and you borrowed money from Alex..."
    I take both of her hands into mine and crouch down with her on the sidewalk to I can see fully into her eyes, into her perfect little face.
    "I'm fine, babe, I'm so great. Soon we'll be on that bus and away from here and we'll get to have a fresh start. And I know I've never borrowed money from Alex before but friends do do that, I promise. Everything is good, everything is finally good."
    She smiles at me, but i can tell she's apprehensive. She looks... mature.
    "Hey, how about something for the road, we can pick up something at the Food Mart before we blow this Popsicle stand."
    Kara giggles, "Popsicle stand? What are you talking about, crazy-man."
    "You've never heard that before?" I say mocking surprise as we continue our walk, "Everyone says it you know."
    "Maybe nutcases like you say it, but I've never heard a nun say that"
    "Well I'll be. What do we have here, a little abbess? Huh, is my little girl going to take up the cloth and make me the happiest daddy in the whole wide world."
    "No way, daddy." Kara shot back wrinkling her nose, "I was just sayin'."
    The bell above the Foodmart door tinkles tentatively as I push into the relative warmth of the indoors.
    "Now go get a couple snacks for us, okay? And not all chips!" But she is already away, scampering down the deserted midday aisles.
    I meander over to the cash register and smile at the man behind it. His mouth twitches in reply. We share a look for a moment, and then I tell him.
    "I'm leaving here. The city I mean. I'm leaving the city and I'm taking my daughter with me and I doubt I'll ever come back."
    The man looks at me, old a wrinkled all over except for his shirt and pants, both neatly creased. I had seen him for the past decade of my life, since the day I came to live at Jupiter apartments and this conversation was the longest I had ever had with him.
    I half smile again, feeling awkward. "I don't know why I told you that."
    The old man smiled, fully this time and said in a voice once strong but now raw and dry from years of rare usage, "Good for you, son. I'm glad you can get out."
    "Thank you."
    Kara's back with an armful of chips, coca-cola and a single granola bar and I take out my wallet but the old man waves me away.
    "I'll put it on your tab," The man says smiling, "And if you ever walk in here again you'll have to pay up, plus interest."
    "Thank you, sir."
    I turn and put a hand lightly on Kara's back and follow her out of the store. I glance back one time as we pass the smudged plate glass window but the man is not looking at me.

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  2. Another trip through the jewelry box. This time to the deepest reaches, where Marguax tried not to delve. But she had exhausted her top layer of jewelry. The patrons always recognized it now. The box was set up with three different layers. The top, presents of flings, the second layer were the gifts from those she had broken up with, and the very bottom had the jewels of those who had broken her heart. She stroked her fingers across the inlaid wood-carved tree hung on a golden chain. Miles Walker. The only man who could ever reach her. She sang that song in her head every time she touched the necklace.
    It had been a long time ago, when Miles had first arrived in America after the war. Then, everything had been about free love, but they were only about each other. They would sit around and listen to records, she would play the guitar, he would whittle. Magdalene ended up being the cause of the failed relationship. When she moved in because of her alcoholism, it put such a strain on their relationship they couldn't continue.
    So Margaux lost everything and could never permit herself to forgive either of them. Her hopes of children, her only escape from L'Royale, and her best friend had flown out the window and nothing was ever the same. She couldn't make herself walk by his mart even. But the necklace made the memories all come flooding back.
    He had whittled it with the carving knife she had given him. It was a piece of art and he had never been artistic. Sitting under a shady oak one day, he presented it to her, telling her she was his muse and that their love had created the necklace. That was years ago, and as no other man had been able to create something out of what he felt for her, she never trusted love again. But she was on the lookout, and bound and determined that her girls not get caught up in lust.

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